WEBVTT 00:00.733 --> 00:03.866 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% (fire truck sirens) 00:03.866 --> 00:06.700 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% (dramatic music) 00:06.700 --> 00:09.500 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% - A lot of product gets sold 00:09.500 --> 00:11.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% in and around these neighborhood streets 00:11.400 --> 00:12.566 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% that we work in. 00:12.566 --> 00:13.700 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% We're right in the middle 00:13.700 --> 00:15.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% of one of the biggest selling areas. 00:17.066 --> 00:18.933 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% - I woke up just so confused. 00:18.933 --> 00:20.666 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% Like I didn't know where I was. 00:20.666 --> 00:22.433 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% I still had the needle in my arm. 00:22.433 --> 00:23.500 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% I was kinda upset 00:23.500 --> 00:26.100 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% because I wasn't high anymore. 00:26.100 --> 00:28.200 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% - Some of the most troubling OD 00:28.200 --> 00:31.100 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% calls we go on is when we pull up 00:31.100 --> 00:33.300 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% and we find a young mother with her 00:33.300 --> 00:35.733 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% 18-month-old baby in the backseat 00:35.733 --> 00:38.200 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% and a needle in her arm. 00:38.200 --> 00:40.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% - The next thing I remember is I woke up, 00:40.333 --> 00:42.400 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:55% the drugs had actually overpowered the Narcan. 00:42.400 --> 00:45.900 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% I had to be Narcan'd again in the ambulance 00:45.900 --> 00:48.233 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% and then a third time at the hospital. 00:49.866 --> 00:51.633 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% - Everyone of them is somebodies son, 00:51.633 --> 00:52.666 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% or somebodies daughter, 00:52.666 --> 00:53.700 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% or somebodies mother, 00:53.700 --> 00:54.733 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% or somebodies brother, 00:54.733 --> 00:56.200 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% or somebodies wife, 00:56.200 --> 00:58.733 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% and I remember all of them. 00:58.733 --> 00:59.933 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:40% - Out of all the calls I've been on 00:59.933 --> 01:01.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% I think the hardest ones are when 01:01.866 --> 01:03.066 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% I actually have to tell the family 01:03.066 --> 01:04.433 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% that their loved one's dead. 01:06.700 --> 01:09.000 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:40% - They went were they're serving needles 01:09.000 --> 01:11.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% and they're risking their safety to go 01:11.000 --> 01:12.833 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% into a place to save my life when I could 01:12.833 --> 01:14.933 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% have been just another statistic 01:14.933 --> 01:18.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% a drug addict on the street that died. 01:18.000 --> 01:20.500 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% (dramatic music) 01:20.500 --> 01:22.100 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (muffled talking) 01:22.100 --> 01:24.833 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% (dramatic music) 01:27.833 --> 01:31.300 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% (indistinct conversation) 01:36.200 --> 01:39.833 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% (firetruck exhaust sounds) 01:43.533 --> 01:45.000 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% - I became a firefighter 01:45.000 --> 01:47.166 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% because I like to help people. 01:47.166 --> 01:49.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% I'm sure that's a very common answer, 01:49.500 --> 01:51.033 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% when you ask people, 01:51.033 --> 01:52.766 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% but ever since I was young I've always 01:52.766 --> 01:55.233 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% really liked to help people. 01:55.233 --> 01:56.766 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% When I was a kid, 01:56.766 --> 01:59.100 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:60% a big red fire truck was always one of my favorites 01:59.100 --> 02:02.533 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% so, when I found out you could 02:02.533 --> 02:04.400 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% actually get paid to do this, 02:04.400 --> 02:05.533 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% to be a fireman, 02:05.533 --> 02:06.933 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% and as soon as I found out that, 02:06.933 --> 02:08.900 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:40% I was like, "now that's the job for me". 02:09.866 --> 02:13.266 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% - This work is very demanding. 02:13.266 --> 02:15.266 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% It's very rewarding. 02:15.266 --> 02:17.633 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:70% Two days are never the same. 02:17.633 --> 02:21.800 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:50% So it challenges you on a lot of fronts. 02:21.800 --> 02:23.166 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% To stay mentally sharp, 02:23.166 --> 02:26.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:35% To stay really physically prepared 02:26.200 --> 02:27.133 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% for a lot of things, 02:27.133 --> 02:28.533 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% a lot of the ups and the downs 02:28.533 --> 02:32.733 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% and the stress, and the stress mentally 02:32.733 --> 02:36.533 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% and physically so it's a lot of preparation. 02:36.533 --> 02:39.700 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% You see the house fire fully evolved 02:39.700 --> 02:41.633 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% and we go in, and then we come out. 02:41.633 --> 02:44.100 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% But there's a lot of prep work 02:44.100 --> 02:48.033 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% so it's a very rewarding job. 02:48.033 --> 02:51.233 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% (firetruck sirens) 02:51.233 --> 02:52.633 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% - When I became a firefighter 02:52.633 --> 02:55.166 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% I thought that the majority of our work 02:55.166 --> 02:56.700 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% would be fighting fires. 02:56.700 --> 02:57.900 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% That's changed now, 02:57.900 --> 03:00.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% we serve all different types of calls, 03:00.400 --> 03:04.033 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% all different types of people, all different responses. 03:04.033 --> 03:06.633 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% I never thought that the majority of our 03:06.633 --> 03:10.133 align:start position:20% line:10% size:60% calls would be overdoses and drug related calls. 03:10.133 --> 03:13.600 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:50% And I never expected that to be the case. 03:13.600 --> 03:15.133 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - I don't think I've ever actually sat down 03:15.133 --> 03:17.666 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% and counted "yup that's one for the day, that's two". 03:19.266 --> 03:22.900 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:52.5% So no, on a very busy night where we're running 03:24.166 --> 03:26.400 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% 25, plus, calls. 03:26.400 --> 03:31.366 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:57.5% We can go easily on 10, 10, 11, 12 overdose calls. 03:34.200 --> 03:36.900 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% (engine roaring) 03:40.200 --> 03:41.300 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:30% - [kid] Bye! 03:41.300 --> 03:43.366 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% - [paramedic] Bye! 03:43.366 --> 03:46.066 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% (engine roaring) 03:47.933 --> 03:49.133 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - [Paramedic 1] They made a drug bust 03:49.133 --> 03:50.233 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% in this house over here. 03:50.233 --> 03:53.100 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% $450,000 in cash. 03:53.100 --> 03:54.300 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% - [Paramedic 2] Six. 03:54.300 --> 03:55.133 align:start position:42.5% line:84.67% size:15% - 650? 03:55.133 --> 03:56.100 align:start position:40% line:84.67% size:17.5% - Yeah. 03:56.100 --> 03:56.800 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% - This white house right here? 03:56.800 --> 03:57.633 align:start position:40% line:84.67% size:17.5% - Yeah. 03:57.633 --> 03:58.533 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% - We had the shoot out. 03:59.766 --> 04:01.033 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:35% - At this fire station we're in a 04:01.033 --> 04:02.600 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% unique situation. 04:02.600 --> 04:06.800 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% This seems to be the epicenter of the heroine epidemic. 04:06.800 --> 04:10.033 align:start position:15% line:10% size:65% If you want to buy heroine this is where you come to. 04:10.033 --> 04:12.733 align:start position:10% line:10% size:80% Yesterday the guys came in said, 04:12.733 --> 04:14.766 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% "There's somebody OD'ing on our front bench." 04:14.766 --> 04:16.200 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:37.5% I go, "Really?" 04:16.200 --> 04:18.133 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:77.5% Walked out and there's somebody OD'ing on our front bench. 04:18.133 --> 04:19.900 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% So it's not uncommon for me to walk 04:19.900 --> 04:22.833 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:52.5% out pick up a needle, sit at the picnic table 04:22.833 --> 04:25.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% and pick a needle up out of the flower bed. 04:26.433 --> 04:28.033 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% There are many, many areas, 04:28.033 --> 04:31.600 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% I can draw a circle around this fire station and 04:31.600 --> 04:34.566 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:47.5% we could go out and pick up needles all day. 04:34.566 --> 04:39.533 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:72.5% So, it's a free open air drug market, it operates 24/7. 04:41.900 --> 04:43.266 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% - [fireman] Fire department. 04:45.800 --> 04:47.433 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:35% You guys okay? 04:47.433 --> 04:48.266 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% - [unknown] Yeah. 04:48.266 --> 04:49.100 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% - [fireman] All right. 04:49.100 --> 04:49.900 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:35% Just checking. 04:51.333 --> 04:53.866 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:67.5% - [fireman] Yeah I know you had to walk down, you know, so. 04:55.366 --> 04:57.300 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% - (woman laughs) No we've been here since (mumbles) 04:57.300 --> 05:00.366 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:57.5% - No, no, dude, we just came to check on you guys. 05:00.366 --> 05:01.700 align:start position:30% line:79.33% size:40% - [unknown male] I was petrified, 05:01.700 --> 05:02.700 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% I thought it was the police. 05:02.700 --> 05:03.700 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% - [fireman] No, nope. 05:03.700 --> 05:04.933 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% Hey we're here, like I said, 05:04.933 --> 05:07.900 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:55% we just came to see if you guys need anything? 05:07.900 --> 05:09.800 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% If you were okay? 05:09.800 --> 05:11.400 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% - [unknown male] No, you just woke me up brother! 05:11.400 --> 05:13.500 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% - [fireman] Sorry, I didn't mean to ruin it for you! 05:13.500 --> 05:18.466 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% But if you need anything, don't hesitate to call. 05:19.600 --> 05:21.000 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:42.5% Stop over to fire house on Clinton Avenue 05:21.000 --> 05:22.266 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% if you ever need anything. 05:23.433 --> 05:24.700 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:35% - I grew up in this neighborhood. 05:24.700 --> 05:26.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% My parents still live in this neighborhood, 05:26.866 --> 05:28.666 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% my brother lives in this neighborhood. 05:28.666 --> 05:30.633 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% I still live in this neighborhood. 05:30.633 --> 05:31.800 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% When I was a young kid, 05:31.800 --> 05:35.166 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% it was a lot different than it is now. 05:35.166 --> 05:36.100 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% Families, everybody lived together, 05:36.100 --> 05:38.866 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% everybody was happy, you know. 05:38.866 --> 05:41.433 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% Everybody trusted each other and took care of each other. 05:41.433 --> 05:42.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% It's a lot different now, you know, 05:42.866 --> 05:45.433 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:55% kids can't play on the street, there's needles. 05:45.433 --> 05:48.866 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% You know vacant houses with needles, all over the place. 05:48.866 --> 05:53.166 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% There's violence, you know, there's homelessness, 05:53.166 --> 05:56.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% there's drug dealers on the corner 05:56.033 --> 05:59.200 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:47.5% and people fighting and problems like that. 05:59.200 --> 06:01.166 align:start position:30% line:79.33% size:40% It's not as safe as it use to be. 06:02.366 --> 06:04.900 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:42.5% The neighborhoods kind of held hostage 06:04.900 --> 06:08.333 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:50% you know by this war with the drugs and 06:08.333 --> 06:10.800 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% the money that it produces and 06:10.800 --> 06:13.733 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% the problems are all associated with it. 06:13.733 --> 06:15.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% And it's not a good thing, you know, 06:15.800 --> 06:17.900 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% all the goodness that comes out of this 06:17.900 --> 06:20.133 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:37.5% neighborhood is all overshadowed by 06:20.133 --> 06:24.500 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% the drugs and the violence that accompanies it. 06:24.500 --> 06:28.200 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% (car seatbelt dinging sound) 06:31.000 --> 06:33.333 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% - Amos fourteen Andrew ALS. 06:33.333 --> 06:36.066 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% (dispatcher speaking indistinctly) 06:36.066 --> 06:38.933 align:start position:25% line:10% size:45% (ambulance sirens) 06:40.533 --> 06:42.333 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% - [dispatcher] 3391... 06:43.266 --> 06:46.133 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% (ambulance sirens) 06:47.500 --> 06:50.233 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% - Working a rural community is really difficult. 06:50.233 --> 06:52.066 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% You know everybody for the most part. 06:52.066 --> 06:53.733 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% Especially in this town, you're very close knit. 06:53.733 --> 06:56.500 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% You know your neighbor, your neighbor knows you. 06:56.500 --> 06:59.600 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:50% Very small town less than maybe two thousand. 06:59.600 --> 07:02.966 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:60% We cover about a hundred square mile secular area. 07:02.966 --> 07:04.800 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% (ambulance sirens) 07:04.800 --> 07:06.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% Compass is a couple different towns, 07:06.866 --> 07:08.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% the farm land, it could be the woods. 07:08.866 --> 07:11.466 align:start position:15% line:10% size:52.5% I grew up here, and I want to help my community, 07:11.466 --> 07:14.000 align:start position:10% line:10% size:60% I've always wanted to be somebody that people are calling 07:14.000 --> 07:15.933 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% because they need help. 07:15.933 --> 07:17.466 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% They don't call me because they're having a good day. 07:17.466 --> 07:19.666 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% They don't call us because they're having a good day. 07:19.666 --> 07:21.966 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% They have probably had the worst day of their life 07:21.966 --> 07:23.500 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% and probably want somebody to come and help them. 07:23.500 --> 07:25.600 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% And I want to be that person that they have helping them. 07:27.666 --> 07:30.300 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:37.5% (doors opening) 07:33.000 --> 07:34.933 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:37.5% (doors closing) 07:34.933 --> 07:35.733 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% - [paramedic] Good? 07:36.866 --> 07:39.733 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% (ambulance sirens) 07:44.266 --> 07:47.900 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% - [dispatcher] (indistinct) 07:49.100 --> 07:51.566 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:32.5% (door closes) 07:53.933 --> 07:56.033 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:27.5% (dog barks) 07:56.033 --> 07:57.233 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% - [unknown] Got one down on book. 08:00.166 --> 08:01.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - [fireman] How long she been down buddy? 08:01.400 --> 08:03.166 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% - [unknown male] I don't know, I just came up, 08:03.166 --> 08:05.833 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:52.5% she came upstairs not even twenty minutes ago. 08:07.100 --> 08:08.300 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% Twenty minutes ago? 08:08.300 --> 08:10.333 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:50% She's been like this for over twenty minutes? 08:10.333 --> 08:11.533 align:start position:30% line:79.33% size:40% - [unknown male] I wouldn't know. 08:11.533 --> 08:12.700 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% She said she was coming to lay down. 08:15.000 --> 08:17.133 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% - [fireman] Any other medical history? 08:17.133 --> 08:18.600 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% - [unknown male] Um... 08:18.600 --> 08:20.066 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:77.5% - So often in healthcare we use the term compassion fatigue. 08:20.066 --> 08:22.166 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% And especially in society, as well, 08:22.166 --> 08:25.200 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% when something becomes our norm 08:25.200 --> 08:27.733 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:75% no matter how upsetting it is, 08:27.733 --> 08:31.833 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:70% no matter that, you know, we have children that are dying. 08:31.833 --> 08:34.500 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% When it's regular and constant, 08:34.500 --> 08:38.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% it gets too tiring to continuously care. 08:38.500 --> 08:41.533 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% And so we get tired and it becomes noise. 08:42.766 --> 08:47.066 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% (people talking indistinctly) 08:47.066 --> 08:49.766 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% - [parademic] We're going to have to go to the hospital. 08:49.766 --> 08:50.900 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% - [unknown] Why? 08:50.900 --> 08:52.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% - [parademic] Because you overdosed. 08:54.033 --> 08:55.866 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% How many bags did you take? 08:55.866 --> 08:57.233 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% Just so we--you're not in trouble. 08:57.233 --> 08:58.833 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% We just want to help you. 08:58.833 --> 09:00.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% - [unknown] I'm not in trouble am I? 09:00.400 --> 09:04.533 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:65% - If the people who see it daily who can not ignore it. 09:05.966 --> 09:10.933 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% Whether that is police, or fire, or EMS. 09:12.933 --> 09:14.866 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% We can't ignore that. 09:14.866 --> 09:16.900 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% It can't become our background noise. 09:18.500 --> 09:21.233 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:50% 'Cause we're nowhere near a solution on this. 09:22.800 --> 09:27.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% We've had more death from this disease 09:27.500 --> 09:31.300 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% than all the people who died of AIDS 09:31.300 --> 09:33.800 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% during the 1980s and 1990s. 09:33.800 --> 09:38.600 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% We have far surpassed that, and that was an epidemic 09:38.600 --> 09:40.500 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% that we thought we would learn from. 09:40.500 --> 09:42.833 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:32.5% (door closes) 09:42.833 --> 09:45.866 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:37.5% (engine idling) 09:45.866 --> 09:50.833 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:65% - [dispatch] She overdosed 193 (indistinct over radio) 09:51.733 --> 09:52.366 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% - [unknown male] Come upstairs. 09:54.533 --> 09:57.266 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% (muffled voices) 09:58.533 --> 10:01.566 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:35% (static noise) 10:01.566 --> 10:03.666 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% (indistinct conversation) 10:03.666 --> 10:06.700 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% (dispatcher muffled) 10:07.866 --> 10:09.066 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - [Paramedic 1] He's still breathing. 10:09.066 --> 10:10.466 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% Let's get him right out in the hall. 10:10.466 --> 10:11.766 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:37.5% - [Paramedic 2] Hang on one second. 10:11.766 --> 10:12.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% - [Paramedic 1] Oh he's freaking cold. 10:12.600 --> 10:13.400 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:37.5% Oh he's moving. 10:14.266 --> 10:17.166 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (fumbling noises) 10:17.166 --> 10:18.433 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% - [Paramedic 2] What did he take? 10:18.433 --> 10:19.266 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% - [unknown woman] I don't know. 10:19.266 --> 10:20.500 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:30% - Hey buddy? 10:20.500 --> 10:21.300 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% - Do you have the bottle or something? 10:21.300 --> 10:22.533 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% - What's your name? 10:22.533 --> 10:23.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% - [unknown woman] I think these pills. 10:23.333 --> 10:24.600 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% - What's his name again? 10:24.600 --> 10:25.700 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% - [unknown woman] These pills, I don't know, I-- 10:25.700 --> 10:28.500 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (muffled talking) 10:36.566 --> 10:39.033 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (dispatch static) 10:39.033 --> 10:41.666 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% - [paramedic] He's never been known to use any? 10:41.666 --> 10:42.933 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% Heroine or opioids? 10:42.933 --> 10:44.633 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% I mean, he's not in trouble, 10:44.633 --> 10:46.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% it'll just help us treat him if we know. 10:46.200 --> 10:47.566 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% - [unknown woman] No. 10:47.566 --> 10:49.066 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% - [fireman] Where'd he'd get these? 10:49.066 --> 10:52.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - [fireman] So we go on a heroine overdose 10:52.033 --> 10:54.066 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% is how they put it out on the radio. 10:54.066 --> 10:56.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% Unfortunately we've become so proficient 10:56.200 --> 10:59.733 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% at doing this we don't even have to talk to each other. 10:59.733 --> 11:00.833 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% You know one of the crew members, 11:00.833 --> 11:02.500 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% one of my guys asked me one day, 11:02.500 --> 11:05.266 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:57.5% "What is the difference between people living and 11:05.266 --> 11:08.100 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% "dying from a heroine overdose?" 11:08.100 --> 11:09.300 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% And I told him I said, 11:09.300 --> 11:10.966 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% "The only reason people live through 11:10.966 --> 11:12.366 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% "a heroine overdose is because 11:12.366 --> 11:15.533 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% "someone is there to call for them." 11:15.533 --> 11:18.000 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:52.5% When we find a person dead it is usually because 11:18.000 --> 11:20.466 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:40% no one was there with them to call. 11:20.466 --> 11:23.200 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:50% They stop breathing, their heart stops beating, 11:23.200 --> 11:25.466 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% and they pretty much die and go to sleep. 11:26.400 --> 11:28.100 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% I mean, we found people 11:28.100 --> 11:33.066 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% that were blue, no breaths at all, heart rate 150, 11:34.500 --> 11:36.333 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% and that surviving patient we can administer the 11:36.333 --> 11:39.933 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:65% Narcan start to pushing it into their system through IV 11:41.566 --> 11:44.533 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% and easily enough they sit up, 11:45.566 --> 11:47.400 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% "What happened?" 11:47.400 --> 11:50.533 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% And they're never, they've never used heroine. 11:50.533 --> 11:52.700 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% This is always the thing, 11:52.700 --> 11:54.300 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% "I didn't use heroine." 11:54.300 --> 11:55.566 align:start position:40% line:84.67% size:20% We know. 11:55.566 --> 11:57.100 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% It's hard to admit, for these people, 11:57.100 --> 11:59.700 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:57.5% that they used and that they're in this position, 11:59.700 --> 12:01.333 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:30% but we know. 12:04.566 --> 12:06.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% - Drugs in rural areas are actually making 12:06.033 --> 12:09.433 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% what once was a very safe place, more dangerous. 12:09.433 --> 12:11.466 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% Everybody thinks that drugs are 12:11.466 --> 12:13.200 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% only in the cities or suburbs 12:13.200 --> 12:16.100 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% but in reality, they're out in the country. 12:16.100 --> 12:18.466 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:30% (foot steps) 12:19.500 --> 12:21.400 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% - [paramedic] Check his pupils. 12:21.400 --> 12:23.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% See if he's breathing and he's got a pulse. 12:25.100 --> 12:26.900 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:60% [Offscreen] The training for this is very important 12:26.900 --> 12:28.466 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% because we want to fight how we train 12:28.466 --> 12:30.000 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% and train how we fight. 12:30.000 --> 12:32.966 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% A lot of that goes for how realistic the training is 12:32.966 --> 12:35.200 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% and how you can actually make a difference. 12:35.200 --> 12:37.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% So what you saw was my partner and I 12:37.000 --> 12:39.700 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% going in from being dispatched into 12:39.700 --> 12:41.633 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% confirming that it was a heroine overdose 12:41.633 --> 12:43.700 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% or some form of opiod overdose. 12:43.700 --> 12:44.933 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% Administrating the Narcan, 12:44.933 --> 12:47.366 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% performing the bag valve ventilations. 12:47.366 --> 12:49.400 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:45% Waking them up and trying to keep them calm 12:49.400 --> 12:52.100 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:55% to the point that they understand what's going on. 12:52.100 --> 12:55.533 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% In the rural setting, drugs could range from heroine, 12:55.533 --> 12:59.700 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:37.5% to fentanyl, to methamphetamines, cocaine... 12:59.700 --> 13:01.400 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% But what a lot of people don't think about is 13:01.400 --> 13:03.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% the pills that are in our medicine cabinets 13:03.200 --> 13:04.700 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% that are prescribed to us. 13:04.700 --> 13:06.866 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% A lot of people are abusing things like the oxycodone, 13:06.866 --> 13:09.466 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% morphine, gabapentin is one of them that's been 13:09.466 --> 13:11.766 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% pretty big these days. 13:11.766 --> 13:13.233 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% Okay answer this honestly we are not 13:13.233 --> 13:14.266 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% the police I need to know 13:14.266 --> 13:17.300 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% have you taken any drugs today? 13:17.300 --> 13:20.333 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% - I think as macho men no one really 13:20.333 --> 13:23.266 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% wants to address, they don't want to admit 13:23.266 --> 13:25.866 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% that these things bother them. 13:27.266 --> 13:31.900 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:65% Over the years you've seen guys fall victim to alcoholism. 13:31.900 --> 13:36.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% I've seen, since I've been on, known 5, 13:40.166 --> 13:44.700 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% maybe 6 guys that have committed suicide. 13:44.700 --> 13:47.033 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:55% - Many of us, personal friends of mine, 13:47.033 --> 13:49.266 align:start position:25% line:10% size:42.5% myself, you know, we have problems 13:49.266 --> 13:52.200 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:52.5% with alcoholism, drug abuse, ourselves. 13:52.200 --> 13:56.433 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:57.5% We have, very few of us have positive outlets for it 13:56.433 --> 13:58.766 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% because it's tough to develop. 13:58.766 --> 14:03.300 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% I mean this isn't stress from work in an office. 14:03.300 --> 14:06.766 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:72.5% This is seeing people die and having lives in our hands. 14:06.766 --> 14:07.933 align:start position:10% line:10% size:77.5% - (chuckles) I mean you can see 14:07.933 --> 14:08.866 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:50% I've put on a little bit of weight, 14:08.866 --> 14:10.066 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:67.5% since I've been doing this, 14:10.066 --> 14:12.633 align:start position:20% line:10% size:57.5% so, you know, unhealthy habits eating-wise, 14:12.633 --> 14:14.700 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% drinking is a very easy one to get into, 14:14.700 --> 14:17.100 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% thankfully I never got way into that, 14:17.100 --> 14:18.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% but I've definitely had those nights 14:18.600 --> 14:20.700 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% where you get home and you have a couple too many. 14:22.000 --> 14:23.233 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% And definitely many peers. 14:23.233 --> 14:25.600 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% I've had peers who have overdosed in the past, 14:25.600 --> 14:28.733 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:57.5% guys that struggle with alcohol use all the time, 14:28.733 --> 14:31.433 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:72.5% you know, I'm grateful that I didn't fall into those depths 14:31.433 --> 14:34.433 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:72.5% and I was able, I have a good support group that caught me. 14:34.433 --> 14:36.600 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:70% - All right so tonight we're covering mental health and EMS. 14:36.600 --> 14:38.533 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:70% I've been seeing things over the past couple of years 14:38.533 --> 14:40.133 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:52.5% and wanted to kind of get this topic started 14:40.133 --> 14:42.366 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:60% so I've been doing stuff the past five or six months, 14:42.366 --> 14:44.133 align:start position:15% line:10% size:65% kind of looking into this. 14:44.133 --> 14:47.900 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:67.5% If you guys want to give me your thoughts and opinions 14:47.900 --> 14:49.766 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:35% throughout the class just pipe up. 14:49.766 --> 14:51.033 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% The more interactive we have it, 14:51.033 --> 14:54.433 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% the easier it is and the more fun it is. 14:54.433 --> 14:57.400 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% The topic of mental health had been on my mind for a while 14:57.400 --> 15:00.400 align:start position:25% line:10% size:42.5% and in May I lost one of my bosses, 15:00.400 --> 15:04.866 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:65% at the other agency that I work for, to suicide and... 15:04.866 --> 15:06.900 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% Totally unexpected nobody saw it coming, 15:06.900 --> 15:08.433 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% nobody saw the warning signs, 15:08.433 --> 15:11.533 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% and that kind of made me jump into the, 15:11.533 --> 15:12.666 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% "let's look into this", 15:12.666 --> 15:14.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:30% "let's start talking about this". 15:14.400 --> 15:17.100 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:45% I created a survey which almost 250 people 15:17.100 --> 15:20.666 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:50% filled out that sort of lead up to the class 15:20.666 --> 15:22.200 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% that I taught on mental health. 15:22.200 --> 15:24.633 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% A few months ago one of my co-workers said, 15:24.633 --> 15:26.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% "Yeah we know we're all messed up, 15:26.333 --> 15:27.566 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% "why are we talking about this? 15:27.566 --> 15:29.733 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% "Why do we need to know that, you know, 15:29.733 --> 15:32.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% "we all have issues about these calls?" 15:32.600 --> 15:35.933 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:55% So I kind of wanted to get the discussion going 15:35.933 --> 15:39.866 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:47.5% and a lot of stigma about mental health and 15:39.866 --> 15:43.033 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% not being able to talk to people. 15:43.033 --> 15:44.266 align:start position:35% line:84.67% size:22.5% You know. 15:44.266 --> 15:45.066 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% Here it says there's no shame in admitting 15:45.066 --> 15:46.300 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% that you're human. 15:46.300 --> 15:48.433 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% I'm trying to bring about some discussion 15:48.433 --> 15:50.000 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:47.5% and make it so that (drowned out by speaker) 15:50.000 --> 15:52.066 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:55% - To watch an eighteen or twenty year old, 15:52.066 --> 15:56.666 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:75% their life slip away, and they had everything going for them 15:56.666 --> 15:59.533 align:start position:25% line:10% size:45% in the world other than this issue, 15:59.533 --> 16:01.833 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% and now they've lost their life. 16:01.833 --> 16:03.033 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% You can't fathom that. 16:03.033 --> 16:05.100 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:35% You can't wrap your head around it 16:05.100 --> 16:09.366 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:55% and realizing how much it effects their families 16:09.366 --> 16:13.266 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% and themselves and watching the death toll rise. 16:13.266 --> 16:16.233 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% It takes a huge chunk of your mental health 16:16.233 --> 16:20.833 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% not being able to do anything about it. 16:20.833 --> 16:25.766 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% But to see young kids dying is probably the worst. 16:25.766 --> 16:28.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% - This is going to take a toll not only 16:28.200 --> 16:33.133 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% on, you know, their career, but them personally 16:33.133 --> 16:35.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% and one of the biggest concerns we have is, 16:35.866 --> 16:39.000 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% not only are we just seeing people dying unnecessarily, 16:39.000 --> 16:41.466 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% we're going to lose a group of professionals 16:41.466 --> 16:44.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% because their careers will be cut short 16:44.033 --> 16:48.666 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:57.5% because repeated trauma like this and seeing it over 16:48.666 --> 16:50.266 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% and over and over again? 16:53.100 --> 16:54.466 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% Burns people out. 16:54.466 --> 16:56.533 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% You can't go to work everyday knowing 16:56.533 --> 16:58.133 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% that you're going to see a young person, 16:58.133 --> 17:00.300 align:start position:30% line:79.33% size:40% who has no other medical problems 17:00.300 --> 17:02.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% other than struggling with whatever chemical 17:02.500 --> 17:04.700 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:30% that they're struggling with, die. 17:04.700 --> 17:06.800 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% That's not something that you can have happen to you 17:06.800 --> 17:09.066 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% everyday in your career and expect that 17:09.066 --> 17:12.366 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:60% it isn't going to change you, and shorten what you do 17:12.366 --> 17:14.266 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% from a career standpoint. 17:14.266 --> 17:16.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% - I find myself in a unique situation. 17:16.600 --> 17:19.000 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% My son, Cody, died from a heroine overdose. 17:19.000 --> 17:21.466 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% I work in the busiest company in the city 17:21.466 --> 17:23.533 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% that deals with heroine overdoses. 17:23.533 --> 17:26.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - I remember it like it was yesterday 17:26.000 --> 17:28.866 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% I got a phone call from a friend of mine 17:28.866 --> 17:30.800 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% who was working at the fire house 17:30.800 --> 17:33.166 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% that responded to Cody's overdose 17:33.166 --> 17:36.500 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% and told me that he had died. 17:36.500 --> 17:39.966 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% - Cody got, I believe, addicted to heroine 17:39.966 --> 17:41.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% because when he was in twelfth grade 17:41.800 --> 17:44.266 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% he broke his foot in football 17:44.266 --> 17:45.933 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% and they prescribed him pain medication 17:45.933 --> 17:48.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% which ultimately lead to an addiction. 17:48.500 --> 17:49.966 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% Then when he was working at Pizza Hut 17:49.966 --> 17:51.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% his manager decided, "hey, I got something 17:51.800 --> 17:52.700 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% "cheaper that works just as good", 17:52.700 --> 17:54.333 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:40% and that was it. 17:54.333 --> 17:56.233 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% Once you do it you're hooked. 17:56.233 --> 17:58.300 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% - I don't know how he does his job. 17:58.300 --> 18:00.766 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:60% I don't know how he gets up everyday and comes here 18:00.766 --> 18:03.700 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% and he's constantly reminded not just from our calls 18:03.700 --> 18:05.500 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:35% but from calls throughout the city. 18:06.900 --> 18:10.433 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% Overdose calls, you know, people unresponsive. 18:10.433 --> 18:12.566 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% I don't know how he does it. 18:12.566 --> 18:15.500 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% I think his desire to help people, 18:15.500 --> 18:18.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:35% and maybe save someone else's life, 18:18.800 --> 18:20.166 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% that's what motivates him, 18:20.166 --> 18:21.900 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% and I think that's what drives him, 18:21.900 --> 18:24.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% is just the hope and just the prayer 18:24.600 --> 18:26.366 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% that he could help someone else 18:26.366 --> 18:28.933 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% because he wasn't able to be there 18:28.933 --> 18:31.733 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% for his son through his overdose. 18:34.966 --> 18:38.100 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% - My brother, Shawn, he was seven years older than I was. 18:38.100 --> 18:40.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% His addiction started because of an injury, 18:40.000 --> 18:43.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% serval years before the big issue started. 18:43.400 --> 18:45.600 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% He broke his ankle, 18:45.600 --> 18:48.133 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% and they started prescribing him the oxycodone. 18:48.133 --> 18:49.366 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% The different pain medications 18:49.366 --> 18:51.233 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% to help him get through the injury 18:51.233 --> 18:52.300 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% and that kid of got him started 18:52.300 --> 18:55.600 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% on the path of getting addicted. 18:55.600 --> 18:56.866 align:start position:35% line:84.67% size:25% 1408 copy. 18:56.866 --> 18:59.200 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% CPR in progress with one Narcan on board. 18:59.200 --> 19:01.966 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:72.5% When my pager went off, I got up just like I normally did 19:01.966 --> 19:04.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% because I wanted to go help somebody. 19:04.333 --> 19:05.800 align:start position:35% line:84.67% size:25% 1408 copy. 19:05.800 --> 19:08.666 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:52.5% CPR still in progress with two rounds of Narcan. 19:08.666 --> 19:11.133 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:65% Fortunately stopped myself before I got to the front door 19:11.133 --> 19:13.300 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% and realized that was my brother in there. 19:13.300 --> 19:14.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% And there was other people responding 19:14.800 --> 19:17.066 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% and I said, "that's my brother I'm not going in there." 19:17.066 --> 19:19.600 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% Knowing that I can't see that. 19:19.600 --> 19:21.800 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% Because I know I'd never be able to unsee it. 19:21.800 --> 19:23.700 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% They worked on him in the house. 19:23.700 --> 19:27.400 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% Tried Narcan, they gave him an IV, they intubated him, 19:27.400 --> 19:29.733 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% got him in the ambulance and took him to the hospital. 19:29.733 --> 19:32.233 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% And I knew he wasn't coming out of it. 19:32.233 --> 19:35.300 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:65% So now it was about how do I go and handle my parents? 19:35.300 --> 19:37.766 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:47.5% And how do I handle basically getting ready 19:37.766 --> 19:39.633 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% for my brothers death? 19:39.633 --> 19:42.100 align:start position:30% line:79.33% size:40% It really didn't affect me until, 19:43.300 --> 19:44.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% I'd say probably about three months after, 19:44.800 --> 19:45.966 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% after the funeral was all done, 19:45.966 --> 19:48.500 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% after the condolences were done, 19:48.500 --> 19:50.633 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% kind of getting back into life. 19:50.633 --> 19:52.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% I went on a call with one of our paramedics 19:52.333 --> 19:54.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% that ended up turning into cardiac arrest, 19:54.033 --> 19:55.966 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% and as soon as I was doing CPR on the individual, 19:55.966 --> 19:59.266 align:start position:22.5% line:74% size:47.5% I look down and all I can visually see is my brothers face. 19:59.266 --> 20:01.500 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:50% So I felt like I was doing CPR on my brother 20:01.500 --> 20:04.466 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:80% and I think it was just a subtle message in my brain saying, 20:04.466 --> 20:06.700 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% "you're not dealing with this appropriately." 20:06.700 --> 20:08.566 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:55% And that really messed with me to the point that 20:08.566 --> 20:12.933 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% I actually was on the hairline of quitting EMS as a whole. 20:12.933 --> 20:14.733 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:42.5% And that's when I went and got help, 20:14.733 --> 20:16.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% and said, "something is definitely wrong". 20:16.600 --> 20:18.000 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:40% And if it wasn't for my co workers, 20:18.000 --> 20:20.700 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% or the volunteers here, pushing me, saying, 20:20.700 --> 20:21.633 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% "Go get some help," 20:21.633 --> 20:23.600 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% I probably wouldn't be here. 20:23.600 --> 20:25.066 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% - This used to be a business. 20:25.066 --> 20:26.300 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:57.5% Especially when I first started, where it was very, 20:26.300 --> 20:27.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% there was a lot of machismo, you know, 20:27.600 --> 20:29.533 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% it was very alpha, you know, 20:29.533 --> 20:31.900 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% you weren't allowed to be affected by this stuff. 20:31.900 --> 20:33.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% Thankfully that's starting to change. 20:33.333 --> 20:34.933 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% It's becoming more okay to talk about 20:34.933 --> 20:37.800 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% the fact that these things do wear on you. 20:37.800 --> 20:39.566 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% Personally, I see a therapist. 20:39.566 --> 20:42.233 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% I have been diagnosed with PTSD. 20:42.233 --> 20:43.833 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% I'm not ashamed to talk about it. 20:43.833 --> 20:46.900 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:55% I take medications and I talk about this stuff. 20:46.900 --> 20:48.433 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% - Lately there's been a lot of talk about 20:48.433 --> 20:50.466 align:start position:30% line:79.33% size:40% PTSD amongst the fire department, 20:50.466 --> 20:52.166 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% police department, fist responders. 20:52.166 --> 20:54.966 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:62.5% I think this is the first time that people are starting 20:54.966 --> 20:59.866 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% to recognize that PTSD doesn't have to be a one time event. 20:59.866 --> 21:03.400 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% It is actually an accumulative event of tragic things 21:03.400 --> 21:05.900 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% you've seen in your life and things that have happened. 21:05.900 --> 21:07.333 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% Whether you're in the military, 21:07.333 --> 21:10.300 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:77.5% you're a police officer, you're an EMT, or a firefighter. 21:10.300 --> 21:12.533 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% I'm sure doctors and nurses have it. 21:12.533 --> 21:15.466 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% I think a lot more people that are in the service industry 21:15.466 --> 21:20.433 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:67.5% and help people that are in need may have PTSD at some level 21:21.633 --> 21:25.933 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% because it is taxing to see people suffering. 21:27.066 --> 21:29.733 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% - [paramedic] Hey there how are you doing? 21:29.733 --> 21:31.266 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% You nodded off there. 21:31.266 --> 21:32.666 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% - [unknown woman] Yeah. 21:32.666 --> 21:33.666 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% - [paramedic] Yeah you nodded off. 21:33.666 --> 21:35.266 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% How much did you use? 21:35.266 --> 21:36.200 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% - [unknown woman] (slurring) What do you mean? 21:36.200 --> 21:37.200 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% - [paramedic] Couple bags? 21:37.200 --> 21:38.333 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% - [unknown women] Yeah. 21:38.333 --> 21:39.900 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% - [paramedic] All right. 21:39.900 --> 21:41.733 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% Did you get anything? 21:41.733 --> 21:43.533 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% - [paramedic] 128 on 72. 21:43.533 --> 21:44.466 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% - [paramedic] That's good. 21:44.466 --> 21:46.633 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% (dispatch beeping) 21:46.633 --> 21:51.566 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% - What I hear in the stories of first responders is that, 21:52.766 --> 21:57.300 align:start position:22.5% line:10% size:55% we don't want to admit our own suffering. 21:57.300 --> 22:01.000 align:start position:20% line:10% size:52.5% And there's a kind of vulnerability that comes 22:01.000 --> 22:05.133 align:start position:10% line:10% size:80% with saying this is really hard. 22:05.133 --> 22:08.300 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% And it's really weighing me down. 22:09.433 --> 22:11.766 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% If we can do that in community 22:11.766 --> 22:16.666 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% and make it an acknowledgement of our humanity, 22:16.666 --> 22:21.633 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% that we are human beings and that actually it's expected, 22:22.833 --> 22:25.966 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% as a human being, that we are going to have 22:25.966 --> 22:28.000 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:62.5% these kinds of responses. 22:28.000 --> 22:31.400 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% Can help people be able to release it, 22:31.400 --> 22:35.333 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:55% rather than to have it accumulate day after day, 22:35.333 --> 22:38.533 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:40% week after week, month after month, 22:38.533 --> 22:42.000 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:60% in a way that eventually causes burn out. 22:42.000 --> 22:42.933 align:start position:30% line:84.67% size:37.5% (engine idling) 22:42.933 --> 22:43.733 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% - [paramedic] It's okay dear. 22:43.733 --> 22:45.300 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:32.5% Hold my hand. 22:45.300 --> 22:46.133 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:35% (woman crying) 22:46.133 --> 22:47.466 align:start position:35% line:84.67% size:25% It's okay. 22:47.466 --> 22:48.700 align:start position:35% line:84.67% size:25% It's okay. 22:48.700 --> 22:49.933 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% - [unknown woman] Sorry. 22:49.933 --> 22:51.300 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:57.5% - [paramedic] No, don't be sorry, it's okay. 22:54.400 --> 22:55.533 align:start position:35% line:84.67% size:25% It's okay. 22:55.533 --> 22:57.100 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:35% (woman crying) 22:57.100 --> 22:58.700 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% Slowly in through your nose and out through your mouth. 22:58.700 --> 22:59.566 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% There you go honey. 23:00.866 --> 23:02.700 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% Just relax it's going to be okay. 23:02.700 --> 23:04.800 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% You're not in any trouble. 23:04.800 --> 23:06.533 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:40% She said she did a couple of bags, 23:06.533 --> 23:08.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% she's been clean for a little while, 23:08.333 --> 23:10.300 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% but she's real upset right now. 23:10.300 --> 23:11.233 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:52.5% - [paramedic] Did you guys give her anything? 23:13.466 --> 23:15.766 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% No, she's got a needle on top of her purse. 23:18.700 --> 23:22.233 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% - [unknown woman] (gasping) I'm sorry. 23:22.233 --> 23:24.833 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% - [paramedic] It's okay. It's okay. 23:24.833 --> 23:25.900 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:55% It's going to be okay. 23:25.900 --> 23:28.066 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:35% (woman crying) 23:28.066 --> 23:29.400 align:start position:32.5% line:84.67% size:32.5% Just breathe. 23:29.400 --> 23:32.700 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (woman breathing) 23:32.700 --> 23:37.533 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:60% - How is it that we take people who sought out this work 23:37.533 --> 23:41.033 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% because of their compassion, because of their big hearts, 23:41.033 --> 23:44.166 align:start position:15% line:10% size:65% and put them in situations that are devastating? 23:44.166 --> 23:48.500 align:start position:20% line:10% size:55% That an over time have accumulative effect upon 23:48.500 --> 23:51.766 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% how they feel physically, how they feel emotionally 23:51.766 --> 23:54.600 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% and also on their mind set how they see the world? 23:54.600 --> 23:58.533 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:75% They see things that don't fit at times with their beliefs 23:58.533 --> 24:00.400 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% about how things should go, 24:00.400 --> 24:02.000 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% and that can be very difficult 24:02.000 --> 24:04.600 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% for people to process and make sense of. 24:04.600 --> 24:07.066 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% So ultimately what seems to help people, 24:07.066 --> 24:09.533 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:37.5% is if they find someway of making 24:09.533 --> 24:11.433 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:72.5% the meaning of the experience 24:11.433 --> 24:14.733 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:70% and trying to either improve the system in some way, 24:14.733 --> 24:17.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% or help others that have been affected. 24:17.000 --> 24:19.733 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:45% That seems to be a critical part of healing 24:19.733 --> 24:22.233 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% in the face of all this trauma 24:22.233 --> 24:25.266 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:40% and sadness that healers experience. 24:25.266 --> 24:27.866 align:start position:15% line:10% size:65% - I do remember coming to, aspirating and vomiting, 24:27.866 --> 24:32.666 align:start position:12.5% line:10% size:70% and seeing his face carrying me down these stairs. 24:32.666 --> 24:35.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:55% Two fire fighters were down in front of me 24:35.033 --> 24:36.533 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:32.5% with his arms underneath me, hooked, 24:36.533 --> 24:38.000 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% and then I went back out 24:38.000 --> 24:39.933 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% and I woke back up in the ambulance. 24:41.700 --> 24:44.566 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% - Krista is a person that we saved, 24:44.566 --> 24:48.800 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:50% on Orchard street, I believe the street was. 24:48.800 --> 24:50.666 align:start position:15% line:84.67% size:65% She was friends with Cody. 24:50.666 --> 24:53.633 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:65% - [Krista] John and Carrie Vagg and their daughters 24:53.633 --> 24:55.133 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:47.5% came to my wedding, 24:55.133 --> 24:58.500 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% and I got to share the best day of my life with them, 24:58.500 --> 25:01.600 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% and I would not be here without John. 25:01.600 --> 25:02.833 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:57.5% I wouldn't have my son. 25:02.833 --> 25:04.466 align:start position:20% line:79.33% size:52.5% I have a one year old who's never seen me use. 25:04.466 --> 25:06.833 align:start position:25% line:79.33% size:45% I have a beautiful husband and a home 25:06.833 --> 25:09.100 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:50% and that's not where I was five years ago. 25:09.100 --> 25:11.300 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:77.5% I was in jail and I had nobody. 25:11.300 --> 25:13.766 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% - [John] I've seen you know one, 25:13.766 --> 25:15.566 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (pastor speaking) 25:15.566 --> 25:18.433 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% good story in 200, you know. 25:19.333 --> 25:21.066 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:52.5% The odds are so slim, 25:21.066 --> 25:22.966 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:32.5% that somebody actually makes it out 25:22.966 --> 25:25.000 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% and makes something of their life. 25:25.000 --> 25:28.000 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:62.5% I'm very impressed to see that but I always worry. 25:28.966 --> 25:30.900 align:start position:10% line:84.67% size:80% As stressful as this job can be, 25:30.900 --> 25:33.433 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:42.5% that's what keeps me going personally. 25:33.433 --> 25:38.400 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:67.5% Our hope that we can affect somebodies life positively 25:39.166 --> 25:40.600 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% and there's always hope. 25:40.600 --> 25:43.566 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:55% I say it all the time, that hopes springs eternal! 25:43.566 --> 25:45.566 align:start position:15% line:79.33% size:57.5% And you never know what it is that can help them. 25:45.566 --> 25:47.500 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:70% Maybe it's just a kind word, 25:47.500 --> 25:50.333 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:47.5% maybe it's a pat on the back, saying, 25:50.333 --> 25:52.033 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% "you can do this, you can help yourself, 25:52.033 --> 25:54.033 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:75% "you can get fixed," you know, 25:54.033 --> 25:55.933 align:start position:22.5% line:79.33% size:45% and you never know and we'll never know 25:55.933 --> 25:57.600 align:start position:12.5% line:84.67% size:67.5% and we don't ever find out, 25:57.600 --> 26:00.233 align:start position:12.5% line:79.33% size:52.5% for the most part, if someone's helped themselves or 26:00.233 --> 26:04.566 align:start position:10% line:79.33% size:80% made it out of this debilitating crisis that they're in. 26:04.566 --> 26:05.400 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:42.5% (firetruck siren) 26:05.400 --> 26:07.433 align:start position:20% line:84.67% size:60% But there's always hope. 26:07.433 --> 26:10.433 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% (gentle piano music) 26:10.433 --> 26:13.000 align:start position:25% line:84.67% size:45% (firetruck sirens) 26:13.000 --> 26:16.066 align:start position:22.5% line:84.67% size:50% (gentle piano music)