1 00:00:06,766 --> 00:00:09,133 (soft piano music) 2 00:00:37,066 --> 00:00:39,466 (soft music) 3 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:45,866 (upbeat music) 4 00:00:45,866 --> 00:00:47,633 - In a place not so far away 5 00:00:47,633 --> 00:00:50,500 at a time not so long ago, the people danced. 6 00:00:51,933 --> 00:00:55,833 Though many miles from that which was sacred, they rejoiced, 7 00:00:55,833 --> 00:00:58,100 because they knew their souls would come home. 8 00:00:59,166 --> 00:01:00,533 It's time to come home. 9 00:01:02,066 --> 00:01:03,933 (Eartha purring) 10 00:01:03,933 --> 00:01:05,833 (audience applauds) 11 00:01:05,833 --> 00:01:07,566 - [Narrator] It was Tom Wolf who said, 12 00:01:07,566 --> 00:01:09,766 "You can't go home again." 13 00:01:09,766 --> 00:01:12,000 But legendary performer Eartha Kitt, 14 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:14,133 recently disproved that adage 15 00:01:14,133 --> 00:01:17,666 with a triumphant return to her native South Carolina. 16 00:01:17,666 --> 00:01:19,300 - Ladies and Gentlemen, 17 00:01:20,466 --> 00:01:23,366 the incomparable, Ms. Eartha Kitt. 18 00:01:23,366 --> 00:01:28,366 (audience applauds) (audience cheering) 19 00:01:39,500 --> 00:01:42,900 - I do appreciate very much, this day. 20 00:01:47,866 --> 00:01:51,266 I had no idea how I would feel coming home. 21 00:01:52,833 --> 00:01:57,800 I left in tears, but it seems I have come home to love. 22 00:02:04,300 --> 00:02:07,200 (audience applauds) 23 00:02:14,500 --> 00:02:16,066 - [Speaker] Oh yes. 24 00:02:18,266 --> 00:02:20,100 - I want to thank all of you 25 00:02:20,100 --> 00:02:24,533 for the gifts that you have given me. 26 00:02:24,533 --> 00:02:25,800 (Eartha sniffles) 27 00:02:25,800 --> 00:02:27,733 And I can now say, 28 00:02:29,200 --> 00:02:33,400 that is I have been in over 108 countries of this world. 29 00:02:35,700 --> 00:02:40,700 I can very honestly say, that today above all days, 30 00:02:42,333 --> 00:02:47,333 you have made me inextricably proud to say 31 00:02:48,300 --> 00:02:49,800 I'm a South Carolinian. 32 00:02:49,800 --> 00:02:50,933 (audience applauds) (audience cheering) 33 00:02:50,933 --> 00:02:52,366 - [Narrator] Although born in North, 34 00:02:52,366 --> 00:02:55,466 Ms. Kitt left South Carolina some 60 odd years ago 35 00:02:55,466 --> 00:02:57,466 when she was just a child. 36 00:02:57,466 --> 00:03:00,000 Impoverished, taunted by relatives, 37 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:02,000 and separated from her mother, 38 00:03:02,000 --> 00:03:05,200 her memories of her home state are less than fond. 39 00:03:06,966 --> 00:03:09,500 - I'd like to know what door this key opens? 40 00:03:09,500 --> 00:03:10,500 - Everything. Everything. 41 00:03:10,500 --> 00:03:13,600 (all laughing) 42 00:03:13,600 --> 00:03:15,533 - Yes I do have mixed emotions, 43 00:03:16,766 --> 00:03:18,866 because I was always very afraid of coming 44 00:03:21,566 --> 00:03:23,000 back to the South because of the way 45 00:03:23,000 --> 00:03:24,266 I was treated as a kid. 46 00:03:26,400 --> 00:03:29,133 And as I say I left in tears more or less. 47 00:03:30,300 --> 00:03:33,566 Also, as a kid I left very happily 48 00:03:33,566 --> 00:03:34,900 because I didn't want to be 49 00:03:36,733 --> 00:03:39,800 constantly in that position of which I was as a child. 50 00:03:39,800 --> 00:03:41,600 Being called a yellow gal. 51 00:03:41,600 --> 00:03:44,000 Not being accepted by anybody. 52 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:46,733 Not having a knowledge of whom I was. 53 00:03:48,400 --> 00:03:51,066 And I've gone through life wondering whom I am. 54 00:03:51,066 --> 00:03:55,100 It's tearful and it's laughable at the same time. 55 00:03:55,100 --> 00:03:56,333 But then that's been my whole life 56 00:03:56,333 --> 00:03:57,866 I've laughed and cried at the same time 57 00:03:57,866 --> 00:04:00,433 because I've always thought, since I don't know who I am 58 00:04:00,433 --> 00:04:02,266 I might as well pretend I am somebody. 59 00:04:02,266 --> 00:04:03,766 So I did and made somebody. 60 00:04:03,766 --> 00:04:06,933 (all laughing) 61 00:04:06,933 --> 00:04:08,933 - [Reporter] Are you pleased with your invention? 62 00:04:08,933 --> 00:04:10,933 - Oh of course I am darling. 63 00:04:10,933 --> 00:04:13,400 (Eartha Purring) 64 00:04:13,400 --> 00:04:15,933 - [Narrator] But during the visit, Kitt also took the time 65 00:04:15,933 --> 00:04:18,833 to learn something about her true identity. 66 00:04:18,833 --> 00:04:21,833 She returned to North, the town of her birth, 67 00:04:21,833 --> 00:04:24,900 and the source of sad an unsettled memories. 68 00:04:43,066 --> 00:04:44,666 - Yup, I remember that a little. 69 00:04:54,666 --> 00:04:56,333 - [Speaker] Yeah this used to be the school. 70 00:04:56,333 --> 00:04:58,000 Used to be the school 71 00:04:58,000 --> 00:04:59,066 when she got out of her car 72 00:04:59,066 --> 00:05:00,500 and she came out over this. 73 00:05:02,400 --> 00:05:05,733 - [Speaker] Yeah. She remember the famous school. 74 00:05:05,733 --> 00:05:07,933 (indistinct) 75 00:05:07,933 --> 00:05:09,400 - Yeah this was a school. 76 00:05:12,200 --> 00:05:13,800 - [Speaker] This is all new. 77 00:05:13,800 --> 00:05:15,133 - Well it might have been, 78 00:05:15,133 --> 00:05:17,566 (indistinct) 79 00:05:20,033 --> 00:05:22,100 (engine rumbling) 80 00:05:22,100 --> 00:05:23,566 - This was a school? 81 00:05:23,566 --> 00:05:25,700 - That's what she remembers this as being, a school. 82 00:05:25,700 --> 00:05:28,166 - Did you go to school here? - What? One day. 83 00:05:28,166 --> 00:05:30,766 (all laughing) 84 00:05:32,266 --> 00:05:34,500 - [Speaker] Ghosts. 85 00:05:34,500 --> 00:05:36,500 - Here's another erica. 86 00:05:36,500 --> 00:05:38,600 - Is it really? - Its a reaper. 87 00:05:38,600 --> 00:05:40,800 - Oh its a reaper. 88 00:05:40,800 --> 00:05:44,033 Its very emotional, because before I came, 89 00:05:45,466 --> 00:05:49,900 I was very concerned about how I would feel once I got here 90 00:05:51,333 --> 00:05:52,600 because of the way I was treated when I was a child 91 00:05:52,600 --> 00:05:54,700 in this area of my country. 92 00:05:55,966 --> 00:05:58,800 But from the emotional side 93 00:05:58,800 --> 00:06:03,866 remembering the hurts that penetrated my little heart 94 00:06:05,233 --> 00:06:08,766 when I was a kid and my inner self, very hurting, yes. 95 00:06:11,433 --> 00:06:12,633 But I think the coming 96 00:06:12,633 --> 00:06:14,166 and I think this is one of the main reasons 97 00:06:14,166 --> 00:06:18,766 why I also accepted this invitation. 98 00:06:18,766 --> 00:06:20,333 And thanks to the Benedict College 99 00:06:20,333 --> 00:06:22,966 that they have invited me to do this. 100 00:06:22,966 --> 00:06:27,600 But I'm able now to eradicate, not forget. 101 00:06:31,166 --> 00:06:35,600 But I think to a greater extent, forgive. 102 00:06:36,766 --> 00:06:40,233 And now that I'm feeling the touches 103 00:06:40,233 --> 00:06:43,033 and getting the touches of the people. 104 00:06:43,033 --> 00:06:44,433 The black and the white, 105 00:06:46,366 --> 00:06:50,033 I'm beginning to feel very comfortable with myself, 106 00:06:51,466 --> 00:06:55,366 as well as my feeling and relations with other people. 107 00:06:55,366 --> 00:06:59,033 Because when you are, well I can only say I, 108 00:06:59,033 --> 00:07:02,766 I feel that being a rejected person, 109 00:07:04,733 --> 00:07:07,433 you don't understand why you are being rejected. 110 00:07:07,433 --> 00:07:10,100 All you know is that you are a different color 111 00:07:10,100 --> 00:07:11,700 and you are called a yellow gal. 112 00:07:13,033 --> 00:07:16,633 So you are not wanted by anybody, particularly if you're 113 00:07:16,633 --> 00:07:19,766 on top of all of that, illegitimate. 114 00:07:19,766 --> 00:07:21,466 You don't know who your father is. 115 00:07:22,533 --> 00:07:24,300 And you have some doubts really 116 00:07:24,300 --> 00:07:26,233 as to whom your mother was 117 00:07:26,233 --> 00:07:29,433 'cause there is no proof of a name 118 00:07:29,433 --> 00:07:31,966 that I can identify with except the one the public 119 00:07:31,966 --> 00:07:34,033 has made me realize is mine. 120 00:07:35,200 --> 00:07:39,866 And knowing something of my past 121 00:07:42,266 --> 00:07:45,300 gives me the feeling that I'm beginning to find myself. 122 00:07:46,833 --> 00:07:49,100 Knowing whom I am. 123 00:07:50,433 --> 00:07:52,300 - [Narrator] The vehicle for Kitt's return, 124 00:07:52,300 --> 00:07:56,200 was a one night only performance of "Souls The Calah." 125 00:07:56,200 --> 00:07:58,633 A dance theater work written and directed 126 00:07:58,633 --> 00:08:00,166 by Walter Rutledge. 127 00:08:00,166 --> 00:08:03,700 Artistic Director of the Benedict College Dance Company 128 00:08:03,700 --> 00:08:05,533 the Harold Odom Dance Theater. 129 00:08:06,900 --> 00:08:09,766 It is set on Wadmalaw Island and it's the folklore 130 00:08:09,766 --> 00:08:12,166 and traditional rituals of the sea islanders. 131 00:08:13,166 --> 00:08:16,166 (upbeat drum music) 132 00:08:24,333 --> 00:08:27,033 Featured in the tile role of The Calah, 133 00:08:27,033 --> 00:08:29,966 the most powerful of Mambo priestesses, 134 00:08:29,966 --> 00:08:32,133 Kitt narrates this tale. 135 00:08:32,133 --> 00:08:34,533 (soft music) 136 00:08:35,666 --> 00:08:38,300 - And when the gates of paradise were closed 137 00:08:39,700 --> 00:08:44,666 the man and the woman and those of the man and the woman 138 00:08:48,466 --> 00:08:52,733 became the first to walk the land. 139 00:08:54,033 --> 00:08:56,600 (upbeat music) 140 00:08:58,833 --> 00:09:01,600 To take dominion over the seas. 141 00:09:07,233 --> 00:09:08,466 To till the soil. 142 00:09:14,733 --> 00:09:16,266 Build the cities. 143 00:09:21,033 --> 00:09:22,600 Study the heavens. 144 00:09:28,000 --> 00:09:29,166 Write the laws. 145 00:09:35,933 --> 00:09:38,000 Those of the man and the woman 146 00:09:40,833 --> 00:09:44,833 became the first scholars, doctors, astronomers, 147 00:09:50,233 --> 00:09:53,666 philosophers, warriors, kings and queens. 148 00:10:01,900 --> 00:10:04,900 (audience applauds) 149 00:10:06,466 --> 00:10:08,333 When I received the script I liked it very much 150 00:10:08,333 --> 00:10:11,566 because I liked the idea of exchanging cultures. 151 00:10:11,566 --> 00:10:13,733 Because I think through the exchangement of cultures 152 00:10:13,733 --> 00:10:17,233 we understand each other and therefore we have an ability 153 00:10:17,233 --> 00:10:20,633 to be able to get along better through communication. 154 00:10:20,633 --> 00:10:22,166 And since it is a college, 155 00:10:22,166 --> 00:10:26,833 I think education is probably the most important thing 156 00:10:26,833 --> 00:10:31,000 that we can give our children because like the saying says 157 00:10:31,000 --> 00:10:32,433 "don't waste the mind." 158 00:10:33,466 --> 00:10:37,400 And I like, now that I'm here, 159 00:10:37,400 --> 00:10:41,500 I like very much Benedict College, 160 00:10:41,500 --> 00:10:44,300 because it seem to stand for values 161 00:10:44,300 --> 00:10:48,666 between the races and different cultures. 162 00:10:48,666 --> 00:10:51,300 What we call civilization, 163 00:10:52,733 --> 00:10:55,333 well the civil side of it is yet to be achieved. 164 00:10:55,333 --> 00:10:57,366 (Eartha giggles) 165 00:10:57,366 --> 00:11:01,900 And the lization about it, is exactly what it is, lies. 166 00:11:04,533 --> 00:11:07,700 We are not realizing what the word actually means. 167 00:11:09,100 --> 00:11:11,333 Civil, whose civil? 168 00:11:12,300 --> 00:11:15,233 You're civil or am I civil? 169 00:11:15,233 --> 00:11:18,200 My culture or your culture? 170 00:11:18,200 --> 00:11:20,733 And if there is a difference in our culture, 171 00:11:20,733 --> 00:11:24,600 let's be civilized about it and not lie anymore 172 00:11:24,600 --> 00:11:28,633 about yours being wrong and mine being right. 173 00:11:28,633 --> 00:11:33,166 Let's share it, learn from it, educate each other from it, 174 00:11:33,166 --> 00:11:35,800 which is what I think this piece is doing. 175 00:11:35,800 --> 00:11:37,133 (upbeat music) 176 00:11:37,133 --> 00:11:41,533 (Eartha singing in foreign language) 177 00:12:09,366 --> 00:12:12,566 The song says every time I walk into a church 178 00:12:12,566 --> 00:12:15,266 I always see Angels that are painted white. 179 00:12:16,633 --> 00:12:18,666 And I'm a black child. 180 00:12:19,766 --> 00:12:23,133 If I am a good child and black, 181 00:12:23,133 --> 00:12:24,700 would I not too go to heaven? 182 00:12:26,200 --> 00:12:27,333 Or are we not allowed. 183 00:12:29,933 --> 00:12:34,366 So now you see why I sing "Angelitos Negros" in Spanish. 184 00:12:34,366 --> 00:12:37,833 It's never been translated into English as well 185 00:12:37,833 --> 00:12:39,933 as I would like it to have been. 186 00:12:39,933 --> 00:12:41,866 But the Spanish word says it exactly. 187 00:12:43,533 --> 00:12:47,966 (Eartha singing in foreign language) 188 00:12:53,633 --> 00:12:56,333 - [Interviewer] Are you at peace? 189 00:12:58,000 --> 00:13:02,833 - When I think that I'm at peace, I really don't know. 190 00:13:04,566 --> 00:13:09,466 Because once in a while if you, that anger coming up. 191 00:13:10,900 --> 00:13:13,400 Not being allowed to have education, 192 00:13:13,400 --> 00:13:15,633 not being allowed to even keep my own name. 193 00:13:15,633 --> 00:13:17,300 Even that was stolen from us. 194 00:13:19,766 --> 00:13:21,066 Who was my tribe? 195 00:13:22,400 --> 00:13:24,833 (soft music) 196 00:13:30,133 --> 00:13:33,466 - A lot of thing were influenced by their environment, 197 00:13:33,466 --> 00:13:36,033 which include rap and a lot of other things. 198 00:13:36,033 --> 00:13:38,633 Country and western, folk and a lot of other stuff. 199 00:13:38,633 --> 00:13:41,800 And they wanna do it all. They wanna make money. 200 00:13:42,966 --> 00:13:45,366 So it's not, when you wanna make money quick, 201 00:13:45,366 --> 00:13:48,200 then you better back up off jazz, 202 00:13:48,200 --> 00:13:50,000 if you wanna make it fast. 203 00:13:50,000 --> 00:13:52,666 If you have patience and you think that 204 00:13:52,666 --> 00:13:57,666 you love it enough to make some sacrifices for it, 205 00:13:58,533 --> 00:14:00,900 then it'll come a different way. 206 00:14:00,900 --> 00:14:04,966 Don't expect for jazz to be on the same level as pop music. 207 00:14:04,966 --> 00:14:07,233 Pop is in and out. 208 00:14:07,233 --> 00:14:11,000 Jazz stays, it's been cheered on, survived 209 00:14:11,000 --> 00:14:15,066 and made all kinds of money, regardless of a hit record. 210 00:14:15,066 --> 00:14:16,866 Duke Ellington's music will be played 211 00:14:16,866 --> 00:14:19,433 forever and ever and ever and ever. 212 00:14:19,433 --> 00:14:23,266 Billie Holiday, forever and ever and ever and ever and ever. 213 00:14:23,266 --> 00:14:27,600 So don't expect for it to be like pop music 214 00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:29,633 'cause it ain't pop music. 215 00:14:29,633 --> 00:14:31,400 It is jazz. 216 00:14:31,400 --> 00:14:33,100 (upbeat music) 217 00:14:33,100 --> 00:14:35,833 - [Narrator] She's Betty Carter, a Jazz legend. 218 00:14:35,833 --> 00:14:38,066 And she makes no apologies for it. 219 00:14:44,133 --> 00:14:46,566 In a career that spends a half century, 220 00:14:46,566 --> 00:14:47,833 Betty Carter has wedded 221 00:14:47,833 --> 00:14:50,500 the ups and downs of her chosen field. 222 00:14:50,500 --> 00:14:53,500 Along the way not only has she established her own career 223 00:14:53,500 --> 00:14:55,833 and proved her staying power, 224 00:14:55,833 --> 00:14:58,100 but she's also reached back, 225 00:14:58,100 --> 00:15:00,333 offering the hands of experience to assist 226 00:15:00,333 --> 00:15:03,366 young and inspiring jazz musicians. 227 00:15:03,366 --> 00:15:06,100 In her view that's just paying her dues. 228 00:15:07,266 --> 00:15:09,166 - Well someone did hire me when I was, 229 00:15:09,166 --> 00:15:12,133 had just got out of high school and I was Lionel Hampton. 230 00:15:12,133 --> 00:15:15,300 I went on the road with him for 2 and a half years. 231 00:15:15,300 --> 00:15:18,333 And that's when I made my decision. 232 00:15:18,333 --> 00:15:19,833 That's who I really wanted to become, 233 00:15:19,833 --> 00:15:22,133 was a good jazz singer. 234 00:15:22,133 --> 00:15:25,666 The same rules apply for most young people. 235 00:15:25,666 --> 00:15:29,133 It's just that today, the environment is different. 236 00:15:30,300 --> 00:15:33,166 There are not a lot of places for them to work. 237 00:15:33,166 --> 00:15:35,300 To get some training, on the job training. 238 00:15:35,300 --> 00:15:38,866 Because in jazz it is that, on the job training. 239 00:15:38,866 --> 00:15:40,566 You can go to school and get your education 240 00:15:40,566 --> 00:15:42,166 and learn about your instrument 241 00:15:42,166 --> 00:15:43,733 or learn about how to play it. 242 00:15:43,733 --> 00:15:45,666 How to use your fingers and stuff like that, 243 00:15:45,666 --> 00:15:49,266 but in order to become a creative artist, 244 00:15:50,700 --> 00:15:52,966 to make your own print, 245 00:15:52,966 --> 00:15:56,066 or to find out how you wanna sound, 246 00:15:56,066 --> 00:15:59,600 you have to really do it, and get out there and do it. 247 00:15:59,600 --> 00:16:04,666 And today, unfortunately there are not a lot of places 248 00:16:05,766 --> 00:16:09,000 for these young musicians to do that. 249 00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:11,766 And I am just one of the people that can hire them 250 00:16:11,766 --> 00:16:13,166 long enough for them to help, 251 00:16:13,166 --> 00:16:15,766 make decisions about their lives. 252 00:16:15,766 --> 00:16:18,733 - [Interviewer] Do you think of your voice then, 253 00:16:18,733 --> 00:16:20,233 when you're standing up there, 254 00:16:20,233 --> 00:16:23,866 you think of yourself as more one of the instruments? 255 00:16:23,866 --> 00:16:27,000 - No, I think of myself as a singer. 256 00:16:28,100 --> 00:16:31,700 But I know that because I am flexible, 257 00:16:31,700 --> 00:16:35,066 I take some risk with the music. 258 00:16:35,066 --> 00:16:37,866 That's what musicians do, horn-players do. 259 00:16:37,866 --> 00:16:42,333 That most people think that my voice is like an instrument. 260 00:16:42,333 --> 00:16:46,666 But I don't think that way, I don't get on the stage 261 00:16:46,666 --> 00:16:49,100 and think well I'm a saxophone tonight or whatever. 262 00:16:49,100 --> 00:16:52,233 No, I think of myself as a singer. 263 00:16:52,233 --> 00:16:53,266 But I just happen to, 264 00:16:53,266 --> 00:16:54,933 whose able to do a lot of things 265 00:16:54,933 --> 00:16:56,566 that maybe horn-players can do. 266 00:16:57,866 --> 00:17:00,033 But I'm a singer. I sing words. 267 00:17:00,033 --> 00:17:02,333 I sing lyrics and stuff. So I'm a singer. 268 00:17:02,333 --> 00:17:03,600 (soft music) 269 00:17:03,600 --> 00:17:07,433 - Yup. You like a lot of you own music and you, 270 00:17:11,033 --> 00:17:15,533 I guess interpret or rearrange a lot of the others 271 00:17:15,533 --> 00:17:18,533 so that it sounds as though it's new music. 272 00:17:18,533 --> 00:17:22,866 Is that really the joy for you? 273 00:17:22,866 --> 00:17:26,200 - Well you know that came as I evolved. 274 00:17:26,200 --> 00:17:28,533 If you go back and listen to my early records, 275 00:17:28,533 --> 00:17:30,766 you'll find that I did not change the melody 276 00:17:30,766 --> 00:17:33,866 that it was pretty much, I did it pretty much the same. 277 00:17:33,866 --> 00:17:37,333 But as I grew in the business and as I educated myself 278 00:17:37,333 --> 00:17:39,800 and my years, I realized that I could do 279 00:17:39,800 --> 00:17:41,200 a whole lot of other things. 280 00:17:41,200 --> 00:17:44,733 Not only that, I refused to change the keys, 281 00:17:44,733 --> 00:17:49,733 that I sang them in years ago, same songs rather. 282 00:17:50,900 --> 00:17:53,233 And because as you age your voice changes. 283 00:17:53,233 --> 00:17:56,733 And most singers maybe dropped their pitches down 284 00:17:56,733 --> 00:17:58,733 a couple steps and stuff like that 285 00:17:58,733 --> 00:18:02,466 to accommodate their voice because of the age process. 286 00:18:02,466 --> 00:18:06,733 Well I refused to change my keys. My ego got in the way. 287 00:18:06,733 --> 00:18:08,366 (Betty giggling) 288 00:18:08,366 --> 00:18:09,933 Then I didn't want to get deeper 289 00:18:09,933 --> 00:18:11,566 'cause I'm already deep anyway. 290 00:18:11,566 --> 00:18:15,333 My throat is deeper and it's getting deeper as I age anyway. 291 00:18:15,333 --> 00:18:16,833 So I just put myself through, 292 00:18:16,833 --> 00:18:19,500 I challenged myself by dealing with the songs 293 00:18:19,500 --> 00:18:21,366 in the same key. 294 00:18:21,366 --> 00:18:25,033 So I would have to change the melody a little bit. 295 00:18:25,033 --> 00:18:26,433 But it also, 296 00:18:26,433 --> 00:18:30,733 because I changed the melody, it educated me. 297 00:18:33,566 --> 00:18:35,600 - [Interviewer] When you look back over this 298 00:18:35,600 --> 00:18:38,033 very long and illustrious career, 299 00:18:38,033 --> 00:18:42,600 what do you see is the greatest period of growth for you? 300 00:18:44,133 --> 00:18:44,966 - Now. 301 00:18:47,533 --> 00:18:50,400 - [Narrator] Really? Would you expand on that? 302 00:18:50,400 --> 00:18:52,966 - Yeah. - Why now? 303 00:18:52,966 --> 00:18:55,366 - 'Cause I know I'm more now. 304 00:18:58,366 --> 00:19:01,333 And I like me better now than I did a long time ago. 305 00:19:02,433 --> 00:19:04,566 I'm confident now. 306 00:19:04,566 --> 00:19:06,800 I'm secure in what I do now musically, 307 00:19:08,300 --> 00:19:10,933 so I'm gonna do, I mean, I'm in love with me now. 308 00:19:10,933 --> 00:19:13,366 (soft music) 309 00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:24,000 ♪ You go to my head 310 00:19:26,966 --> 00:19:29,400 (soft music)